stupid flanders. stupid flanders. stupid flanders.

emmm the only reason i write this is because cik sonik is a little wee bored looking at gang rape all this while. so there you go sonik.

randomness : spongebob in awe sounds exactly like homer in mengidamness. mr. burns ruless!!

aaaaanyhoo, this is how my head goes these days. random.

apart from kacau jiwa assignments, this is all i have for you guys ;

1) never bowl after veeting your legs. the ball will either go in the longkang or in a much worse case ermmm goes backwards. you might not see the relation now but heck, why dont you try it yourself?

2) never veet without enough cream. regardless how bululess you think you are.

i've been gang raped. with everything. mentally and emotionally. (nope not physically)

soo easy if i could just shut down and shun myself.

hmmmmmm but being me all i can do is absorb everything and put on a smile.

lala life sucks at this point.

this is soooooooooooooooo fucked up i got goosebumps all over.

kinky incest

my heart just sinks.

no matter how much i take my daily dosage of simpsons.

screwed. screwed. screwed.

on the contrary when everybody seems to be happy about spring. hate it. now. it rains. a lot. wet wet wet. and there's a bicycle involves.

blerrgghh.

my heart sinks.

malang tak berbau

even with an intimate relationship with my bicycle for a couple of years now i still manage to fall like an idiot. no wind no nothing i just fell.

shaz was there but apparently i didnt hear anyting. i dont get it though. cause if i was him i'll be laughing my ass off but i heard just.. nothing. only my name. either he's holding his laugh (which i dont think he does a very good job of) or 'god she has the worst reflexes ever. suck to be her.' going in his head. haha anyways glad elly wasnt there cause she wont be much of a help. bet i'll only hear hyenic laugh for the next 10 mins.

aaaaanyhoo my jeans didnt rip, much to my disappointment. coz then i'll have a cool jeans with real story hahah. the whole thing wasnt really bad actually. the thing is i have this 10cm long greenish blackish red bruise on my inner thigh. which doesnt add up at all since i landed on my knees. anyways its freakish looking i kinda like it. and i just realized everytime i pressed the thingy i smiled a little. pain is bliss. now it's official to say i'm a creep.

bak dialog di bawah;

kodi : they said i'm weird. lol
shaz : u? weird? why am i not surprised?
kodi : demn

Wien - Budapest - Prague

spent a week doing some exam stress venting.

WIEN / VIENNA
-typical German atmosphere.
-mecca for those who appreciate arts. i dont have the money to even step into a single museum so the whole thing in wien was pretty bleh.
-the receptionist of the hostel we stayed was pretty bleh as well. ummm reminds us a lot of our physic teacher, Frau Seul. ladies and gents, she by far, is the worst living nightmare i've encountered. being the physic teacher back in Köln Fachhochschule she often chased those who are late out. never let us go to the loo (who the hell can control their bladder?), and has the creepiest penetrating blue eyes ever. period. and bad breath. and the receptionist lady resembles her a lot. and by a lot i mean physically and mentally. scary berry.

BUDAPEST
-has on average good looking people.
-cute receptionist too.
-a lot of places to see.
-i know i've mentioned this but - good looking people. emm by people i mean guys. dont really have the time to check girls out. terlalu rambang mata. mungkin kalau bernasib baik dapat berkahwin dengan hungarian satu.

PRAGUE
-cheap.
-has this one great chinese restaurant near our hostel. best szechuan i've tasted so far!
-busuk people. drunk people. be careful or they might grab your ass. yelck!
-but overall an ok place to visit.

*******

-blew my budget on this trip
-a lot of people seemed to recognized we're malaysian so i guess kudos to europeans? although i do get a lot of stares here in germany. and occasionally get asked where i'm from or what kind of language we were speaking. hmm

oh. i've been tagged?

8 random facts

1. my true arch nemesises are clowns and worms.

even before It the Clown came out i was never comfortable being around those colorful hideously face-painted creatures. i dont know who came up with the idea of a full grown man with flappy shoes and freaky laugh, but boy, aint he insane. they're not even funny to begin with. and the fact that It the Clown eats children who fear clown doesnt help either. the movie haunts me for years. now i have goosebumps when there's clown nearby. even ronald mcdonald creeps me out. and as for worms - i scream even when its only on the tv. that bad.

2. i may look like this - but i'm actually a couple of pounds to being underweight.

3. this happens a lot recently. i sit. and do absolutely nothing. the room temp is low 20s (celcius). and all of a sudden - mucus meleleh. like its on a mission or something. it wont stop oozing for god knows how long. so i guess this has to count as a talent. or what?

4. i never fail to wear black. and pink is a faux pas.

thanks to It the Clown i used to be scared of colors. haha (zaman bodo) thinking colors might attrack It. emm now its just - hitam itu peryllis. heh. aaanyways black represents elegance. if not - then why would coco chanel invent 'the little black dress'. and its friggin epidemic! everyone has the little black dress (malu nak mengaku tapi aku pon ade haha). can you imagine 'the little pink dress'? ugh faux pas faux pas!! what a crime. i am - of course - already out of the phase in life where everything i own is black. i've evolved. but pink is still unforgiven. no matter how you put it.

5. i'm very into k-pop. (korean popculture for those who knows jack)

i could talk about it for hours. dan seperti melempar minyak kedalam api (betul ke? belasaahh laa) housemateku jua sebegini rupa. and honestly, if i saw anyone looking slightly asian i have this wishful thinking that they're korean. and i would quietely get closer to them trying to hear what they're saying. and if they're korean hahah i'll get all excited and do somewhat a personal listening test just to check my vocab pot. psychotic, i know. pathetic, maybe. but hey, now i can at least watch korean variety shows without sub and still understand. ooooooo how i wish i could do a homestay.

6. i am a magnet to weirdos.

still don't understand why but most guys who asked me out are weirdos. they're prolly just plain jack and i'm the one who compels the weirdness out of them. i don't know. they're weird. no details here.

7. i tend to forget crucial stuff. i've told this before. like, i know there's something i need to do. and i'm thinking real hard what. for a whole 5 minutes i would sit and think really hard. then i feel it - kene berak. sekarang!

8. people acting randomly. makes me. happy. macam jung min. of ss501. sexy devil.


im taggin:

crystal
k.lisa
k.mai
milo
chibi

the fuck with people blocking their blogs??

i do not want to be older. shit man in a month i'll be twenty bloody two. i hadnt done anything just yet. what about surfing? and skim boarding? and sky diving? and latin dance classes?

emmmm graduate? hah. lambat lagi kot.



beluuum beluuumm im not ready nak keluar teenage years (because technically im still 21). o wait my head just went blank. now i forgot what i initially wanted to write. so... ciao.

o shizzz. its getting pretty old with writers block.

this used to be my sanctuary!!!

i even wrote a poem (haha) about a witch (haha give and take a letter).

not only im inarticulate these past days, i cant even write.

what heppenggg? partly prolly cause there were too many silent readers (hey if not u who can i blame)

aaaaanyways paper hari cam..... fuck. (sila baca dengan nada expressionless) and then semua bende la aku nak langga kan. lepas habis cussing semua benda aku langga, tibak aku pegi masak. pegi masak. pegi masak? pegi masak yooo!!! macam sakai ok aku. tekanan perasaan pegi masak. how or more appropriate when did i became this lame? ugh.

yea one bitching coming up. peace out y'all.

bahagia betul duduk serumah dengan orang suka memasak ni.


hari ni aku dapat makan lemang dan rendang.


kat melesia pon tak macam ni.

Heath Ledgers dead. it breaks my heart. he's one of those people that i thought just plain talented. demn.

woh. personal discovery. rupanya iris mata orang berbeza-beza. iris aku bunga-bunga. tak caya?? heh





ok la mata aku dah kedut-kedut belum 22 tahun lagi. sebab selalu pull all-nighter (ceyywah). tapi sumpah tak pakai kontek lens sumpah tak edit. just guna kemere bangsa bapak je. dan lighting toilet. kalau tengok betul-betul boleh nampak shaz dalam anak mata aku. betapa authenticnya.

sesi perasan yang keji ini berhenti disini. ciao.

GAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

FUCKETY FUCKETY FUCK.




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this is sad. cause i've got nowhere but to vent it here.

ok cover baru. ini namanya tade keje carik keje.

sebab exam nak dekat so baru sekarang terhegeh nak buat relationship dengan gita.

banyak flaw. ini yang kite cari, yah.

i love randomness. i dont and i cant believe that the brain works thematically. hmm at least not mine. and you know whos the best at randomness? communitychannel. i SWEAR i never layan vloggers on youtube. because that would make me very.. umm.. like, a weird internet freak who never goes out and socialize? emm come to think of it, aku kurang sikit dosa kurang cakap kurang kutuk lebih jaga mata. hahaHAHAHAHAhahaha. what a load of wank. but yes. i do watch communitychannel.

i dont wear my glasses all the time, thus the often sight probs and relying-on-friends-tell-me-what-the-hell-it-says thingy. amazingly enough, i can spot acceptable mediocre to very hot but ko-ol looking opposite sex anytime of the day. which makes my closest people wonder. i dont know. its THE radar, mannn. i have no control over it. oh yea, i have very good gaydar too. except for this one time, i went into starbucks the other day and was so highlariously in a good mood the moment i stepped in. i turned my head everywhere and asked myself, where do these beauuutiful people coming from?? and 3 mins later this friend of mine told me - theres a pride parade going on out there. demmit. she has to just open her mouth and say it. i guess my gaydar isnt that great after all.

bottomline. randomness is radical.

and is it THAT weird if i say i really want to take up latin dance class? like, seriously. i didnt think so. i told a few memss and they were, like, 'uh? emmmm yea. whatever you like.' uhuh. they gave me the cold shoulder. its all about passion, y'all. anyhoo, we saw this part where a couple was dancing to salsa or sth in a music vid, its fastball-the way methinks. there were these sharp moments where the guy pulled the girl to his chest and suddenly, in the middle of the night, this guy friend of mine said, 'i want to know how to dance this.'

and. i. was. literally. gagging.


in my head i was, like, the eff?? it has never occur to me that a malay guy would say something like that. not from anyone that i know. or at least not from him. not from anyone decent lah konklusi. bukan la aku tak decent tapi aku perempuan, so lain la. kot? tapi the question that he made - which has been in my mind for a couple of years now - 'macam mana kalau spouses kite tak nak? susah la, aku kena cari wife yang nak buat jugak. macam ko gak ah, kena carik husband yang into benda ni.' hahahaHAHAHAH macam jahanam kan soalan?? hmm i know. and thats why i came up with a solution - if my husband wont do this, i'll get me some gay hunk. spanish preferably. haaa fair and square. eh tapi nyah aku tak mauu.. nanti siapa susah? akaaaaaaaakk jugakk nyahh!

sudaaaaaaaaaaahh. hentikan pemikiran sia-sia iniiii


o well at least i dont write some bimbo crap about me shopping or what a great day i had taking kawaii pictures or god knows what else bimbos - or bimboes? - write.


lala mahuuu esketinnnnnnn.


this is too random, even for me.

out of words. this is plain randomness.

yea kemere waterproofku belum di try test lagi dalam air. selain air sirap raya. dalam periuk nasik.

the fuck was i doinnnn??

so shaz wanted to aplod the pic to his frenster based on the reason he was never in the pictures. and i said hell nooooo. siapakah kuang haja hangkat gamba candid aku tengah bersakaiii??

and he said he'll aplod the so-called liza-dicrop. yang ropanya lagi macam keji.






walau apa pon, tidakkah anda perasan bahawasanya walaupon muka mereka masing-masing nampak tenang, dan muka aku extrabeganza expressionnya, tapi gamba aku yang paling clear. hahahahahahahaha apa tandanya tu??

started the day with not a very good mood.

so decided to sing a song. that i've never been able to tarik. and play. plus i got hingus. so it makes it even better.

at least i laughed. enjoy hehe






kesian tak? aku demam woii.

o demmit.

know how homer's head full of donuts, and bacon, and beer, and cream pie and.. o well ya get what i mean. hmmm... creaaaaammm pieeee..*drool~* (you don't know simpson if you don't get this)

anyways. now my head's full of guns and roses. cis.