oh pak abu. jangan datang malam ni.

woke up with the worst feeling ever.

the thing about me is that if dont get a straight soundless sleep (no, not talking about sounds because even if a crane is working outside my window i wouldnt give a damn. soundless meaning the kind of sleep that when u wake up you feel like a clean slate, blank almost. macam nak senyum je bangun-bangun. ok agak saiko jugak description but you get what i mean.) so anyways. i'd feel like i've been swimming with crap the whole night if;

-i cant sleep (bergolek bagai pon tak boleh tutup mata)
-i can sleep but i'd wake up at least 3 times if not every god damn hour.
-i can sleep but mimpi ooooohhh ngeri* nyela berbagai. atau mimpi bodoh yang bila bangun rasa nak menyimba (as in simba. menyinga. mengamuk.)

*mimpi ngeri adalah termasuk mimpi yang ada kaitan dengan exams. this is the worse kind. seemed to be coming true often if compared to other kind.

so to have 2 criteria get all mixed up in one night is a whole lot more than just feeling like swimming in a pool of crap.

get this. mimpi. kinda was in a brawl with my sis. prolly has something to do with the wardrobe (hahahah gilaaa vain la pulak aku ni.) then i talked to my dad. turned out i blew up even worse with him. then ntah apesal ade pulak function kat rumah aku punyalah ramai sedara-mara beserta strangers coming in. then aku mengamuk dengan brother videotaper/photographer. gaduh-gaduh. then my dad intervened. lagi aku meletop. tried to calm meself down lepaking with some cousins. that was an excruciatingly annoying experience. family drama. trashtastic. so then i finally decided to take up car keys and go for a drive. there was suddenly a helluva big truck passed by just as i closed the door and BAM! there was shitload of snow on my car i cant move. i couldnt get out of the car. huh.

macam haram tak? bangun dengan penuh kebencian. manaaaa ada snow kat pj woiii. aku dah penuh emo dah masuk kereta (because driving is therapeutic to me despite aku drive macam perempuan gila) kenaapaa harus snow? siap bergaduh dengan bapak. hahaha anak bertuah kalau alam nyata perangai macam tu. tak cukup dengan mimpi, sambung balik tido bangun tiap jam kot.

adela jugak bloodshot dalam mata (in addition sebab main game sampai lewat malam).

speaking of, apsal pulak la macam satu dunia melayan mafia wars ni? bukankah ia seperti druglord yang telah fofuler sejak bangku sekolah dahulu?

ape sajala labuuu asal kau bahagia.