i see butterflies with pistols

the intial intention of me hitting these keyboard keys is to primarily bitch. about everything. but know what? screw that.

wow im happier these days. last winter i was seriously depressed i was even thinking of taking prozac ke apa ntah. for real. now, i barely swear. except masa main wii. sebab kadang-kadang remote die macam jahanam. aku dah penat buat aksi menumbuk, mii tu dok bediri macam tiang. cis. mungkin sebab aku semangat extravaganza.

aaaanyyhoooo.. this upcoming christmas hols is nerrrrrve wrecking. not about seeing glaces. which i know its gonna be a blast. but hmm. hmmmmmmm. hmm how do i put this into words?

gotta 'fess up. he wanted to see me. wow i know this is new to some. hmmmm. so. gotta shave some pounds. gotta look good. ya know, to show i've moved on? not that i havent. yish habis la. aku dah jadi perempuan habis. buduh ke tidak ni??

i thought i've moved on. i'm waaay much happier if compared to those days. but. the second he told me that we've gotta do some catching up, we should berkofi-kofi, my heart didnt just skip a beat. it was going 100 beats per min i swear i thought i was having a heart attack.

now. what dya say bout that? sheesh. this is just pathetic. i should get over this.




tell me tell me t-t-t-t tell me.