things i said i wanted to try currently:

buat skin seniri from scratch (oh saya masih berada dalam neraka HTML)
buat nasi lemak
buat sushi
buat tomyam (walaupun tiada daun limau purut, ada rasa-rasa bacang dengan tomyam)
exercise (ehem, the weather's quite unpredictable, its either too hot or too cold)
hack my ipod (i'll wait till my warranty's up, if i hack it now, i'll void it)
upgrade my vaio (tunggu duit masuk)







as a burden of proof;

mari mari beli. yang ada sambal udang mahal sikit, tapi sama harga buleh dapat sambal ikan campur kangkung. heh. siap ada pinggan kampung lagi. mana landlord aku dapat aku pon tak tahu.

- aah tomorrow's going to be the last day of work.. man, to think that i actually had been putting up with my language hell, it was actually worth it. i never knew that people in the western actually have this kind of culture.

i mean, the way they 'guten morgen'ed us every single day without fail really impressed me. even in malaysia you don't have that. oh not only that, but as well as 'guten appetit', 'mahlzeit', 'tchuess', 'bis morgen'...to everyone. even to people that they don't know. man, i think i'm falling in love with this kind of lifestyle. aku nak bawak style ni pi melesia. bia orang kata aku gila, at least aku buleh bangga belaja jauh-jauh bawak balik yang elok.

not just that. thomas is sooooo exceptionally attentive. i asked him for help, and he stopped doing whatever he's doing and came to our place and explain until we understood every single word he's saying. and when we don't, he tried to say in english (although i got to admit, he's not THAT fluent, with he's typical german accent and stuff, which makes it even impressive, and comel all the same time). well, heheh, i OVER gave him the credits. not just him though, almost all of them. but he's the only one who stopped completely his work and entertained us at that very moment. mana nak jumpa orang macam tu? at least, to me, this is my first time.

alah. aku sangat sedih nak keluar daripada textronix. hmmm. tapi tak payah bangun pagi lagi dahh. jeng jeng.


- well anyways, hari senin kami buat nasi lemak untuk mat salleh-mat salleh di firma. iyaah dengan bangganya mereka jatuh cinta dengan makanan paling fofular di malaysia. HAHAHAHA siap mintak resipi. bukan itu sahaja malahan siap belaja apakah kayu manis, bunga lawang, daun pandan dan ...

tapi lagi bes tengok muka mat salleh tahan pedas tomyam aku. hari ini aku bawak tomyam-yang-tak-jadi-tomyam-sangat-sebab-tade-limau-purut pergi ke firma.

aku : sup ini mungkin agak pedas untuk tunas rasa orang eropah. *muka penuh serius*
boss : *rasa sup* emm lek je. penah rasa yang lagi pedas.'
aku : ohh bagus la. sebab saya masak ni pon, berkira-kira juga, sebab nak kasi kurang pedas.
yani : ....... *muka merah... berair-rair hidung*


selepas beberapa minit menelan tomyam, datang mamat kerek dan mamat-bapak-orang.

m.b.o : eh, ada apa ni?
aku : oo nak cuba?
boss : rasa la , ada maca-macam. ayam, udang, telur.. sedap. tak pedas sangat.
m.b.o : ye ke tak pedas? boss, kamu nampak berpeluh.
boss : mana ada.
aku : heheh.
yani : ...... *muka masih merah*
m.b.o : ok la. kita cuba.

sebentar selepas itu.

m.b.o : *rasa sup sesuap, lantas menoleh mukanya ke belakang* pedas nak mamposs. *terus mengambil roti dan ngap. sesuap sup, ngap sekali roti*
boss : pedas m.b.o??
m.b.o : ehhh mana adaaa...
boss : hmm kaka. maksud dia pedas la tu.
aku : iye saya tau.
yani : ....... *tutup muka merahnya dengan tisu yang selalunya digunakan untuk mengelap alatan.*

selepas makan, boss selalunya kembali ke mejanya untuk membaiki alatan. tapi pada hari ini, dia terus mencapai buah epal dan ngap. da melepak-melepak ditempat makan agak lama. HAHAHAHAHAHA
















moral value : jikalau pedas, katakan pedas. tak perlu mengontrol macho. walaupun jiwa terseksa melihat aku menelan sup dengan rileknya.



p/s: perbualan diatas telah dialihbahasakan seratus-peratus daripada bahasa german ke bahasa melayu.

stuff (a pointless survey, but take it anyways, what have you got to lose? but your soul?!)
basics, i think
full name (first, middle, and last):	keshet nanananana kedondong
any nicknames? list them, dammit........:	liza kodi kodi-kodi kodi
birthdate:	pie day, the same day einstein died
where were you born? (if you know, dont ask how a person wouldn't know):	uni hosp
height:	5' 6". kot.
weight (get your ass on a scale if you don't know):	hahaha i'm no dummy
current hair color:	dark. not really sure the color though. going thru some major improvements.
eye color:	same color as my hair. going thru some improvements as well.
blood type (if you don't know, either guess or say something random):	all my life i thought i'm an O, but last year when i donated they told me i'm a B. bizarro.
did you/do you go to school? if yes, what was your average GPA?:	i dont take sats
any siblings? if yes, how many?:	2 excl me. aku paling muda. dan menawan. lala
got any tattoos? gonna get any/any more?:	i want mermaids on me.
got any piercings? gonna get any/any more?:	not anymore
and your hobbies are? (if you have any, that is....):	recently, colecting resistances. and diodes. yeah, i dont get it as well.
whats your race? (as in human, demon, etc. not ethnicity cause i dont care):	hm. tough one. hybrid? correct? no?
.....got any pets? if yes, how many?:	they died. they always do.
what country are you currently in?:	germany.
Favorites.....
color?:	black green
song? if you have a specific favorite, that is....:	i dig un bloody mary por favor
emotion?:	ermm emo.
uhh....type of....dog?:	the one with shorts legs. hardly crazy so i don't freak out in the middle of the streets.
type of cat?:	i only know there's siamese and parsian. and no, i don't like them.
animal?:	harimau!! sangat cantik. and mermaids.
food?:	thai!!
favorite profession?:	ummm.. designer. yea, flying kul.
restaurant?:	thai's.
drink?:	hmmm. plain aqua.
flower?:	neh?
quote?:	none. thinking of getting one but none sounds inteligent enough
favorite anime? (if you even have one):	bleach. naruto.
season?:	autumn. spring.
country?:	...
have you ever...
stolen anything?:	hahahahaha. i refuse to answer this.
been drunk?:	hell no
smoked?:	once, i exhaled and spit it out, like, 1/10 sec after that.
been in love?:	nanananananana
committed murder?:	i wish
cried in the rain?:	no no. too dramatic.
been struck by lightning?:	nope. but three times by power supply board. 340volt. i'm scarred
run away from home and been gone for a long period of time?:	why would i do that. i'm not home most of the times anyways
given a cop the middle finger?:	hahah suweet
told a cop to fuck off?:	even suweeter
caused a car wreck/crash? (on purpose or by accident, it doesnt matter):	yea, duh
played strip poker with the opposite sex?:	oooooooooooooo
played strip poker with the opposite sex and lost?:	erm.
hurt (emotionally) so bad that it felt like your heart had been massacred?:	yes yes
cut yourself on purpose?:	cuckoo...
cut yourself on purpose just to see blood?:	cuckoo...
tasted someone else's blood?:	nope just mine
shot someone?:	yes. as lara croft.
kissed someone?:	no sinship or skinship (NSOS)
kissed someone and felt sick to your stomach when remembering it later?:	NSOS
had sex with someone of the opposite sex? (i have to ask):	NSOS
had sex with someone of the same sex? (im overly curious):	never will even if its with angelina jolie
called someone a bint?:	i thought bint means binti. daughter of..
pushed someone into a lake or other body of water on purpose?:	yea
laughed so hard that your nose started bleeding?:	hell yea. i didn't realize i was bleeding until saw my physics book .
do you/can you...
can you make yourself cry?:	huh?
do you smoke?:	no
do you drink?:	no
do you like bacon?:	euw. fuck disgusting
do you like the opposite sex, same sex, or both?:	which one demmit?
do you....like school? if you ever went to school....:	who does?
do you care?:	for..?
can you sing?:	only when there's reverb
do you hate sleeping?:	when there's sun in my eyes, yeah
can you tell me where to find my sanity?:	erm, ask your god
This or That....(or both, or neither)
sake or whiskey:	sawhis
diet or regular (as in pop/soda, numbnuts):	regular
herbivore or carnivore:	om
life or death:	angan angan
meat or tofu:	nasi lemak
regular milk or soy milk (both are nasty to me):	to me too
death by your suicide or death by someone else's homicide:	both are too horrifying
soda or pop (how do you say it?):	soda. what's with pop, man?
tears of joy or tears of sorrow:	never had tears of joy. so.. the latter.
day or night:	night definitely.
black or white (trust me, they ARE colours):	duh
decaf or espresso:	decaf
would you rather....
follow the law or break the law?:	depending on what kind
be a cop or be a criminal?:	already am the latter
live in the Sahara or live in Antarctica (with me)?:	who are you??
have a label or tell those hypocritical bastards to fuck off and die?:	who are they to me?
live with michael jackson for the rest of your life or jump off a cliff?:	live with him. he's a gay anyways
be a homosexual or be a homophobe?:	i aint no homophobic
be yourself or give up your identity to be "popular"?:	i am popular just by being me lala
eat a cooked cat or eat a cooked dog? (some countries do):	euw i'm not in vietnam
sing in a church choir or sing with michael jackass, i mean, jackson?:	neither
be crazy or be "normal"? (nothing is "normal", trust me on that):	yea, then why ask?
do the chicken dance or do the hokey-pokey? (you must choose one of them):	chic dance
take a bath or take a shower?:	shower
eat deer jerky or eat beef jerky?:	uh?
For or Against....
homosexuality (in general....):	i don't have anything against gay guys. they're ot
war:	against
gay marriages:	em
politics:	emm
cheese flavored bacon:	emmm yuck
atheism:	they have to at least find a path
religion (another in general):	for
do you believe in....
yourself:	sometimes no
god:	yea
satan:	they exist
heaven:	yea
hell:	yea
yin (to me, yin is the light but what ever it is to you, answer your way):	..
yang (as before, to me the yang is the darker side, deal with my idiocy):	..
demons:	satans and demons arent the same?
angels:	yea
ghosts:	no
the soul (NOT the spirit religious thingy, soul! your soul!! do ya?):	emm yea
reincarnation:	hell no. that's stupid
do you believe that....
human stupidity will be the end of the human race AND the world?:	yes
world peace will ever happen?:	no
last questions....on stuff.....meh.....
are you misunderstood by humans?:	all the time bebeh aaallll the time
are your views on life and shit like that darker than what society wishes?:	yea, how do you know?
do you think that society can just go fuck itself to hell? (i sure do!):	fuck itself to hell.. *making a visualization..*
do you want me to shut the hell up?:	watever you want
have i offended you yet?:	sorry not yet
do you think words can be bad? (curse words, i dont think words can be bad):	no no no
why are they always after me lucky charms? (lack of sleep has gotten to me):	uh?
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-ich liebe mein job. mein gott, ich liebe mein job.


-i am physically poor coordinated. another way of saying i'm clumsier than just plain clumsy. really sick of having something going wrong everytime i do my work. not that i detest doing work, god i love it to death. but really, kalau tak skru beterabur jatuh, skrudriver jatuh. kalau tak aku terlanggar benda, benda langgar aku. apaaa nihhh?! if it was a bad day, or even week, i can accept it. but 8 weeks? come on, couldn't be my dumb luck, could it? feels even akward when i need to explain something technik in german. really, how did people perceive me anyways? not that i really care, though. but still, feels like i'm in the beauty and the geek show. err except the beautiful part.


-speaking of beauty, i don't feel kamfertebel in my exterior physical casing. heheh erti kata lain aku rasa macam gemuk gila. mana tak, dah dua minggu aku makan macam tong. sekali makan nasi buleh habis satu pot. makan mee, tambah dua kali. big scoops. mana main sikit-sikit. lepas makan kena ada desert. plus, now i'm constipated. in conclusion, the output is not proportional to the input and therefore causing such excess which i prefer to call it as adipose tissue or simply extra padding. funny though, cause exactly ten years ago, i asked god to give me more fat. i was stick-thin and back then, i wasn't comfortable physically as well. typical. but hey, now not that i can't accept myself, but i just do think that i can do better with what god has given me. bukan nak jadi kurus, tapi sehat. sejahtera. physically as well as mentally.


-and speaking of food, heidi's husband was such a sweet heart making us all in tektronix, sushi! really killed my cravings. she even shared tips on how to make good sushis. heh. esok aku mau buat nasi lemak. and the day after sushi. and the day after that tom yam. and the day after the day after that samosa. biar la aku makan macam tong pon. hati senang!


-speaking of hati senang, i went to fuehlinger see (tasik fuehlinger). uissshhhh. cantik nyaaaa! too bad i'm moving out in two weeks time. if i would've found it earlier, then i could do some 'me' time there. pouting while sitting under the trees with clear greenish blue water, watching people kayaking, cam whoring heheh. would definitely enjoy it better if i have a good company or a good book as well as good music.

bliss.. fuehlingersee.

-nonetheless, i would have another lake at my new place. they even got 24 hours mcds and subways. not bad, for a country where everything closes at 8. hey, i'm all giddy inside. bocholt, here i come! new house, new faces, new season. can't wait!








p/s: i just ordered in curry shrimp with rice and omg lelehan air liurku ditelan dengan nikmat. dah la buleh main koling-koling, makanan sampai depan muka pintu, sedap macam makanan melesia pulak tu. sekali lagi, ternakan lemak berjalan dengan jayanya!

how come people don't really write in their blogs?

how come people don't bitch over others in their blogs?

how come people don't cuss in their blogs?

or am i the only one whos doing it?

or people just don't have dramas in their lives?


sigh.

lalala.


encik timi oldskul telah kahwin. cincin emas di jari manis kanannya betul-betul mematahkan hatiku.



tak pa aku redha.


hmmmm. i'm soo sad it's colder these days. i mean, physically its not that tormenting anymore, since cold is easier to cope than hot. these people here don't even have any fans let alone AC built in most places therefore hot is distressing.

tapi sayang, encik oldskul yang selama ini tidak jemu untuk dilihat, diusha, dijenguk mahupun ditegursapakan telah berubah. berubah bersama cuaca. it was hot, he was hot. now it's cold, he's the antonym of hot. unhot.

now i'm in a very strong refusal to even have a glance of him.

one, it's the gold ring. demmit. demmit. demmit. that means, all this time i've been goggling for a married guy. eeeeee. geli la pulak. rasa macam usha datuk k. hmph my bad.

two, he's like a freaking nerd!!! now he's wearing jeans, with tucked in t-shirt. tucked in. TUCKED frigging IN! and he even goes with that scruffy unshaved look. no i don't dig. hell no. not with that friseur, that specs and shoes. pakcik nerd. the thing is, he doesn't even look happy these days anyways, so..hmm. its pretty hard to go up to him and say something. HAHAHA aku tengah berangan. ok ok all these while he's the only who does the aproaching. aaaaanyways, what i'm trying to say is.. him with those greenish or sometimes camouflage shorts and UNtucked t-shirts. that's hot. literally and figuratively. plus i'm so into guys with green shirts. he's into green shirts. he wore green, like almost everyday. during summer anyways. but now... it's rainy, and he's into red. wtf?? nooooo, don't he gets it?? red? it's too..rank. man.


so whatever. i'm not into him anymore.

UPDATES!!

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p/s : its a long entry.

err its official.























i dig heath.

aku suka heath ledger. dan jake gyllenhaal. HAHAHAHAHA

feel like bitching over someone right now.

come on. i'm a ticking bomb. one of the ladies i'm living right now is REALLY pushing the buttons. this miss i'm-a-little-too-high-class is soo making my living hell. the worse thing is, she's not even trying.

so, lets start with what i can't even avoid.

the toilet aka the shower. you wake up in the morning, take up your toothbrush, open the forcet and - WTF??? ada sejanggut rambut di dalam sinki serta serat-serat yang tidak dapat dikenalpasti, daripada apakah ia sebenarnya diperbuat. i know it's not mine, i know it's not yani's. she and i, we have dark hair. the other twos have brighter. but one is red another is orange. and i swear they were orange. oh, wait. they were for the past 4 weeks, they are and they will be for the next three weeks. and the main suspect is sole. confirmed. the boyfriend always comes over on the weekends to spend some 'quality time'. fine. the idea that its summer and i have to wear hijjab and long pants around the house is for me no problemo. no fakken problemo. i bear and ye shall relish.

tapi tak ke bodoh?

the boyfriend : oi. your toilet tersumbatlah.
me : huh? yea, i know. (demn, aku malu)
the boyfriend : yeahhh, and there's some hair in there! *pointing at me. literally.*
me : *eating and almost choked* (fak) yea, well, i malas nak layan. (they're your bloody ignorant girlfriend's, you asshole.)
the boyfriend : yea, well you should do something about it.
miss i'm-all-high : *shuts up, trying to be ignorant, and flips her god damn ORANGE hair*
me : yea? i malas nak layan. fuck this house, i can't wait to get out.
the boyfriend : ......
miss i'm-all-high : ......
me : .......

akward silence. hell, it wasn't awkward for me.

i swear, i was cussing all the way. hello?? aku sental jamban, aku lap cermin. give and take la. although i do it accasionally, at least i did something and i would be ashamed of myself if i know im making a mess in a sharing area. i don't just leave my organic mull in the sink, when i know other people will be using them. why do you think its clogging in the first place? plus, why would there be ANY hair in the sink anyways? i take SHOWER in the morning, unlike some people, prolly wash their friggin hair in the sink. hair should be accumulating in the shower tab. i don't even want to imagine and assume what more of the weirdness of her conducts in the shower.

that's one. there was even tissue in the toilet!! unflushed. oh,well, its being flushed, like 5 times. nothing happened. like its stuck there, for good. i mean, EUUWW. I, for one, never use toilet paper. neither do my other flatmates. even if we do, we don't flush it down the toilet. duh! because it's not even toilet tissue in the first place! it's called kitchen cloth. it's thicker than ordinary tissue, dumbass. you don't just flush it down the toilet. see, the thing is, she's too stingy to buy toilet papers so i guess the best way round is to use the kitchen cloth that all of us are sharing. shessh, but even i, who doesnt even use toilet papers, know that if you use too much of them, toilet'll be clogged. same principal goes with kitchen cloth.

and having to go through this EVERYFUCKINGDAY sucks. just as i came home back from work these things will just rocket me to my emo zone. demn it. i even refused to cook for a week so that i could avoid everyone and that i won't snap everybody. i slept in my work clothes for 3 consecutive days, mann. i'm just in that bad of mood.

and things i just could avoid but i don't. cause i just have the heart.

so we had to do our laundry at the boys' cause this stupid little flat doesn't exhibit any washing machine. and when i said i wanted to do the laundry;

miss i'm-all-high : eyy sape mau buat laundry??? *sounding all excited*
me : yea, me. IF the guys ain't doing theirs. o god i soo have a lot of clothes to wash. (i purposely said that cause i so know she wanted me to wash hers as well)
miss i'm-all-high : owh *even got the guts to bring out her clothes*
me : but hey. you could use it first if you wanted to.
miss i'm-all-high : no no it's okay. you can use it first. i malas.
me : hm. okay then.

after i came back from throwing my clothes in the mashine.

miss i'm-all-high: eh, you'll be moving your clothes into the dryer right? sooo.. could you, like, throw in mine into the mashine? *acting all giddy and nice*
me : hmm, its gonna take a long time though, cause i got,like, lots of clothes. prolly around 2 hours or so. (demmit, don't ask me to run charity for you.)
miss i'm-all-high : yea, that's okay.

that's not faking okay, god damn it. oh ok, now i see why you don't 'feel like it' when i asked you to wash your clothes first. so that i could be running around as your doggie, eh? and to thought i was being thoughtful offering you to go first. what do you have to be malas about? you don't have to wear any hijjabs or change your shorts. i do. and for goodness' sake, the boys are just living next door!

time to change to dryer.

me : these are all your clothes?
miss i'm-all-high : yea, just throw them in.
me : sabun?
miss i'm-all-high : err.. well, heheh just use yours, i don't have any, anyways. *acting all cute*

then how do you wash your clothes all these while? plus, i have no intention of taking up and down two bottles of soap and softener, especially when i just wanted to remove my clothes into the dryer. fucker.

later.

miss i'm-all-high : hey. its a bit late and all. i wanna go to sleep already. could you please, if you wanna take your clothes, put mine into the dryer? i've got to go to work early.
me : hm i don't know. i might just leave mine tonight cause its late and all.
miss i'm-all-high : oh shit. i have no clothes for tomorrow's work.
me : i don't know.


i'm, like, WTF, maann? i fakken offered you to wash yours earlier. and knowing the mashine's working wonders especially with time, manage your own life! urgh. but alas, i ended up taking up my clothes that night, oh, more likely to midnight, cause i don't feel it would be fair for the guys to have clothes in their mashine AND dryer the next day. and i freakin threw her clothes in the dryer.


but the worse part is, i even hated yself not to say it to her face. mann, if i do that, she will be hurt for life! i don't think i'll say it, i'll just splash it. i'm not really into the flattery way of speaking anymore these days. it's pathethic, i know.





cepat lah habis ogos. alaaaaaaaaaaah... tapi aku sayang tektronix. tanak la habis kerja cepat sangat. ishh. bodoh la duduk dalam rumah ni.

pffftftftft.


ishhhhhhh.


ciss hatiku pecah.


apsal timi oldskul pakai cincin di jari manisnya? betul kah dia sudah berkahwin?? aishh.. pecah pecah pecah hatiku.


habis apa motivatisi aku mau pergi kerja??


takkan thomas superman sorang je aveilebel di kampeniku? ish, dia pon hari-hari gayut ngan awek.


ahhhh! cepat la aku pindah.