i see butterflies with pistols

lalala.


encik timi oldskul telah kahwin. cincin emas di jari manis kanannya betul-betul mematahkan hatiku.



tak pa aku redha.


hmmmm. i'm soo sad it's colder these days. i mean, physically its not that tormenting anymore, since cold is easier to cope than hot. these people here don't even have any fans let alone AC built in most places therefore hot is distressing.

tapi sayang, encik oldskul yang selama ini tidak jemu untuk dilihat, diusha, dijenguk mahupun ditegursapakan telah berubah. berubah bersama cuaca. it was hot, he was hot. now it's cold, he's the antonym of hot. unhot.

now i'm in a very strong refusal to even have a glance of him.

one, it's the gold ring. demmit. demmit. demmit. that means, all this time i've been goggling for a married guy. eeeeee. geli la pulak. rasa macam usha datuk k. hmph my bad.

two, he's like a freaking nerd!!! now he's wearing jeans, with tucked in t-shirt. tucked in. TUCKED frigging IN! and he even goes with that scruffy unshaved look. no i don't dig. hell no. not with that friseur, that specs and shoes. pakcik nerd. the thing is, he doesn't even look happy these days anyways, so..hmm. its pretty hard to go up to him and say something. HAHAHA aku tengah berangan. ok ok all these while he's the only who does the aproaching. aaaaanyways, what i'm trying to say is.. him with those greenish or sometimes camouflage shorts and UNtucked t-shirts. that's hot. literally and figuratively. plus i'm so into guys with green shirts. he's into green shirts. he wore green, like almost everyday. during summer anyways. but now... it's rainy, and he's into red. wtf?? nooooo, don't he gets it?? red? it's too..rank. man.


so whatever. i'm not into him anymore.